They Are Always Right!

The time now is 1.56 in the morning. Ayah's still not feeling well and his sugar turned out to be 25.5, which is very high. Ayah never bother to 'pantang' in what he consume or get enough rest. To him, WORKING is his life and no one can ever stop him from doing it. All he needs to do right now is TO REST, TO STOP EATING OUTSIDE FOOD (because they might contain a lot of sugar and seasoning) and GIVE YOURSELF A BREAK (body and mind)....
Okay, actually, I just talked to Zizi about many things. It was like heart to heart chat. I know it would be bad to write in here but...this is my blog, who cares!!!
I know and everyone knows that it's not 'nice' to live with your parents after you've got married. I do agree with her when she said that it is like I'm still under ayah and mama's 'tanggungan' for I'm still staying here with my family. Truly, I don't want to live here with this kind of feelings and live in this small room with four people in it. But what choice do Ajib and I have as we still waiting for the house purchasing process. Rent a house?? The process will take about two months or maybe three. I don't think it is worth to rent in a very short period of time. But to continue living like this, make me sick!! I hate to wait. And it is not our fault for making the process taking so long. It's the owner's fault.
I really want to have my own life with Ajib, kids and not to forget Khotimah(erk!)It is really difficult to NOT to bother of what people said behind your back. People will always talk about you.. Talk about everything because we all live in one roof. Honestly, we don't want to depend on them but we have to for a meantime. Where else can we go other than our own home. This is where we live, so, can't we consider this is our house? Our home? A shelter?
It is also 'hurt' when people talk about your financial status. Why can't we pay for this and that.. Two incomes should generate more money and bla..bla..bla.. And I think they are right! They are always RIGHT because I spend too much on unimportant things and they're always spend on the RIGHT things. But that's what I enjoy to do every weekend. Go out, buy things for the kids.. I really enjoy doing it. People do have their own interest, not only me. When you enjoy doing something, money is not a matter anymore as long as you can afford to buy it. Little money will always be there to fulfill your desire. Some people will spend on food, movie and many other things. People can say anything about what you do as if they're always do the right things in their life. And they are always RIGHT. As 'the chosen one' told me when I told her that I hope to get a laptop after buying a house, ' If you get a house, first thing is to buy basic needs before you can think of buying a laptop. Laptop is not that important. Out of 100 things, laptop is at number 101'... What does she think? That we gonna buy a laptop before getting a washing machine or bed???? And yes, she is always RIGHT!!!!
When people make an issue out of it (moving out A.S.A.P) you don't belong here anymore. You will never belong in the house after you get married. And they are always RIGHT about that! I feel that it is our(Ajib&me) mistakes for letting this thing happened in our life. It is always our fault....MUST NOT depend on other people after you are married even on your own family. NEVER!! After two and the half years of marriage, Ajib and I are just starting our life together. But no one understand the situation. They thought that we didn't want to look for a house and have our own life. Of course we want to but our mistake is to stay and search for quite sometime. That is when people started to ask whether you are going to stay for the rest of your life or moving out sooner or later...
Well, although this has to do with some people but the reason i write this tonight is because i need to take it out from my heart. I hate to feel 'hurt' and wait but that's what I have to face. And whatever they said is always RIGHT! Things are not always as easy as you have planned.
But...They are always right...especially 'THE CHOSEN ONE'..Guess who???